A MEMORY

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DAY THREE 

ya ampoon, hampir kelupaan bestie, 20 menit lagi udah ganti tanggal pula, untung keinget, masa baru hari ketiga udah ke skip seh...

oke, hari ini gua mau ngomongin soal "memori".sebenernya gua bingung si mo nulis ttg apa, kayak ga ada yg memori spesifik yg terlintas gitu di kepala gua. 
hmmm, apa ya

let's talk about my childhood di Bandung (yg indah definitely). sebenernya ini rads sedih si, bukan memorinya, tapi kenyataan bahwa gua tu ga begitu inget detailnya, khususnya memori yg indah2, dan entah kenapa yg buruk2 malah nempel banget gitu di otak gua, heran. jadi buat cerita yg mau gua tulis, gua cuma ngandelin cerita orang2 aja.

bandung, agustus 2003
jadi di tempat gua itu, dulu setiap 17an pasti ngadain parti sekomplek gitu kan. kayak nanti ada banyak penampilan dari anak2 sampe orang gede. 

nah salah satu penampilan itu tu, ada tari saman, yg tampil bocah2 sd tu, termasuk teteh gua. nah, gua yg masih bocil umur 3 tahun, yg lagi nonton bareng ibu gua tiba2 merengek pengen ikut naik panggung. kan bingung ya ibu gua, ntar kalo malah ngancurin formasi orng2 begimana, apalagi tari saman yekan. tapi karna ga tega apalagi gua anaknya imut dan manis akhirnya dibolehin lah tu naik ke panggung. and surprisingly, ternyata pas gua naik gua malah apal dong koreografinya. a little girl with curly hair yg imut nan manis itupun seketika jadi pusat perhatian para penonton dong. sampai konon para performer aslinya (termasuk teteh gua) pada gedeg gara2 orang2 malah fokus ke gua katanya. hahaha

ibu gua, bapak gua, tiap ceritain hal ini ke gua pasti bilang, "kamu tu dulu aktif banget, disenengin orang sekomplek, ceria bla bla bla". 🙃

kadang suka bertanya2 sih, kok gua sekarang ga kaya gitu lagi yak. beda banget gitu sama gua sekarang, yg diem, gak suka berinteraksi sama manusia banyak2. 

gua juga kadang berharap gitu bisa kayak gitu lagi, being a people person. tapi yasudahlah, begini juga gua udah nyaman dan bahagia 😌

memory, it's all just a memory right 

pengen masukin foto tapi ga nemu foto gua pas bocil, karna jaman gua kecil tu ibuk bapak ga ada kamera jadilah gua sendiri yg ga punya foto pas bayik hiks🥲

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